Recent DNFs (Did Not Finish)

Wake Up and Open Your Eyes, by Clay McLeod Chapman



A horror novel about - I think - how a Q-Anon analogue turns people into literal zombies. I couldn't get into this book. I don't think it was bad, it just wasn't my thing. I didn't vibe with the prose style at all.

The Baby Dragon Cafe, by A. T. Qureshi



A woman opens a cafe that's also a baby dragon rescue. I adored the idea of this book, not to mention the extremely charming cover, but the execution left a lot to be desired. It was just plain dull. I dragged myself through two chapters, both of which felt eternal, then gave up. Too bad! I really wanted to like it, because the idea is delightful.

In the Path of Destruction: Eyewitness Chronicles of Mount St. Helens, by Richard Waitt



This ought to have been exactly my jam, except for the author's absolutely bizarre prose style, which is a combination of Pittman shorthand and Chuck Tingle's Twitter minus the sense of humor, with an allergy to articles and very strange syntax. I literally had no idea what some of his sentences meant. This weirdness extends to direct quotes from multiple people, making me suspect how direct they are. And yes, this was traditionally published.

Here are some quotes, none of which make more sense in context:

It contrasts the chance jungle violence with lava flows off Kilauea - so Hollywood but predictable.

"The state's closure seems yours. Have I missed something?"

[And here's a bunch of Tinglers.]

Heart attack took Eddie in 1975.

These years since wife Eddie died Truman's fire has cooled.

Since wife Eddie died, Rob is the closest he has to a friend.

Since wife Eddie died, Truman has been a bleak recluse, the winters especially lonely.
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([personal profile] laurajv Jul. 21st, 2025 12:17 am)
Open Water (6287 words) by Laura JV
Chapters: 3/3
Fandom: Star Trek, Star Trek: The Original Series
Rating: Not Rated
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: James T. Kirk/Spock, Amanda Grayson & Spock, Sarek & Spock (Star Trek)
Characters: James T. Kirk, Spock (Star Trek), Amanda Grayson, Sarek (Star Trek), Leonard "Bones" McCoy, Vulcan Characters (Star Trek)
Additional Tags: Episode: s02e05 Amok Time (Star Trek: The Original Series), Episode: s01e14 Court Martial (Star Trek: The Original Series), Episode: s02e19 The Immunity Syndrome, Episode: s02e15 Journey to Babel, Family Issues
Summary:

The Intrepid is an offer, and a threat, and eventually a lifeline, but Spock cannot be other than he is.



Kelly Ramsey became a hotshot - the so-called Special Forces of firefighting - with three strikes against her. She's a woman on an otherwise all-male crew, a small woman dealing with equipment much too big for her, and 36 years old when most of the men are in their early 20s. If that's not enough, it's 2020 - the start of the pandemic - and California is having a record fire year, with GIGAFIRES that burn more than ONE MILLION acres. At one point her own hometown burns down.

The memoir tells the story of her two seasons with the Rowdy River Hotshots, her relationship with her awful fiance (also a firefighter, on a different crew), her relationship with her alcoholic homeless father, and a general memoir of her life. I'd say about three-fifths of the book is about the hotshots, and two-fifths are her fiance/her father/her life up to that point.

You will be unsurprised to hear that I was WAY more interested in the hotshots than in her personal life. The fiance was loosely relevant to her time with the hotshots (he was jealous of both the male hotshots and of her job itself), and her alcoholic father and her history of impulsive sexual relationships was relevant to her personality, but you could have cut all of that by about 75% and still gotten the point.

All the firefighting material is really interesting, and Ramsey does an impressively good job of not only vividly depicting hotshot culture, but also differentiating 19 male firefighters. I had a good idea of what all of them were like and knew who she meant whenever she mentioned one, and that is not easy. You get a very good idea of both the technique and sheer physical effort it takes to fight fires, along with plenty of info on fire behavior and the history of fire in California. (She does not neglect either climate change or the indigenous use of fire.)

This feels like an incredibly honest book. Ramsey doesn't gloss over how gross and embarrassing things get when no one's bathed for weeks, you've been slogging through powdery ash the whole time, there's no toilets, and you're the only one who menstruates. She depicts not only the struggle of trying to keep up with a bunch of younger, stronger, macho guys, but how desperate she is to be accepted by them as one of the guys and how this causes problems when another woman joins the crew - a woman who openly points out that flawed men are welcomed while every mistake she makes is taken as a sign that women can't do the job.

I caught myself wishing that Ramsey hadn't had an affair with one of her crew mates as many readers will think "Yep, that's what happens when women get on crews," and then realizing that I hadn't thought that about the man who had the affair with her. Even I blamed Ramsey and not the equally culpable dude!

Ramsey reminded me at times of Amy Dunn's vicious description of the "cool girl" in Gone Girl, but to her credit, she's aware that this is a persona she adopted to please men and fill the void left by her alcoholic dad. Thankfully, there's a lot more to the book than that.
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([personal profile] vass Jul. 17th, 2025 11:36 pm)
Books
Read Cliff Jerrison's short story 'Question 3', which is (as the author himself writes), "an ongoing mood".

Finished Freya Marske's A Power Unbound. Quoting my own reply to [personal profile] sovay in a comment on an earlier post, after finishing the trilogy: "it tries to do some interesting things with the nature of power and privilege, with reference to land ownership, aristocracy, cultural heritage, but I'm not sure how well it stuck the landing. I get the feeling the author was wrestling a bit with the politics of the system she'd set up, the implications of those politics, and the fact that she had to wrap up an Edwardian period fantasy romance trilogy with a happy ending."

The ending I got was fine for a romance novel, which is what this is. But I wanted more exploration of what the denouement really changed for everyone, and what I wanted would have been incompatible with that romance novel ending.

Started reading R.A. MacAvoy's The Lens of the World. I'm about 3% through and found it a lot rapier than I was expecting, although considering that it was published in 1990 I should have braced myself.

Comics
Tense about current events in Dumbing of Age and Questionable Content, for different reasons. Re QC, what I haven't seen mentioned yet in text is that the worst Anh's father can do to her is not simply cut off her allowance. [after the cut, spoilers and also psychiatric abuse triggers]

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Fandom
Beta-read the latest chapter of [archiveofourown.org profile] Drel_Murn's 'Wheel and turn'. First time I've betaed in a while.

Games
Unlocked Ascension 5 for all four Slay the Spire characters. The last of them was the Silent, tonight, with a lot of luck, Donu and Deca, and Corpse Explosion my belorpse explosion.

Tech
Finally got a secondhand laptop to replace the one which died. I've been spending a lot of time trying to get it in a condition in which I'll be comfortable using it.

Unfortunately, I made the decision that I'd try switching to Wayland, which necessitated exploring a lot of different utilities, and... yeah.

The most ridiculous shark I encountered, however, was not a Wayland problem but rather a font installation problem. In that when I installed font-awesome (a font package that is mainly symbols, often used for decorative purposes, e.g. pseudo-icons in one's status bar) none of the few fonts I had thus far installed had configured themselves as a default font family. font-awesome... did.

So all of a sudden my app launcher, my terminal windows, and some websites (including the Arch wiki) were displaying in font-awesome.

Some features font-awesome has:
- ligatures which convert the string "OSI" to the Open Source Initiative logo, "windows" to the Windows logo, and of course "at" to an @.

Some features font-awesome does not have:
- visible colons, virgules, or periods
Did I mention this was happening in my terminal?

The solution was just to install another font that considers itself a default font family (e.g. DejaVu) and clear the font cache. I managed to find a post by someone on Reddit who had the same problem, same font, same window manager, in a different operating system (Void.)

Links


Nature
Saw a red fox crossing the road last week.
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([personal profile] sef1029 Jul. 14th, 2025 11:53 am)
 FROM BLOSSOMS
 by Li-Young Lee

From blossoms comes this brown paper bag of peaches
we bought from the boy 
in the bend in the road where we turned toward
signs painted Peaches.

From laden boughs, from hands,
from sweet fellowship in the bins,
comes nectar at the roadside, succulent
peaches we devour, dusty skin and all,
comes the familiar dust of summer, dust we eat.

O, to take what we love inside,
to carry within us an orchard, to eat
not only the skin, but the shade,
not only the sugar, but the days, to hold
the fruit in our hands, adore it, then bite into
the round jubilance of peach.

There are days we live
as if death were nowhere 
in the background; from joy
to joy to joy, from wing to wing, 
from blossom to blossom to
impossible blossom, to sweet impossible blossom.



I finally got around to watching "The Accountant 2", later than I planned because I realized that I maybe should really rewatch the first one before.

Which was a good idea because it turns out that my vague memories of the original movie, which I last watched in 2017 when it came out, were terribly, hilariously wrong. /o\ I don't know how, but I completely forgot that Christian wasn't just super smart but also a highly trained fighter and that he and Braxton hadn't been working together for the better part of "The Accountant"? I'm genuinely appalled at how the movie I remembered had very little to be with the actual movie.

Having said that, I really loved it upon rewatch – actually more than I did the first time around, mostly because the subplot with Ray and Medina worked better for the now than it did then. I loved Braxton's realization, and his reunion with Christian! And I enjoyed the chemistry between Dana and Christian – they had some really cute moments – but unlike on my first watch, I was entirely satisfied with what the movie gave us there.

I watched the sequel right afterwards and also enjoyed it even though it was more action-heavy and tonally somewhat different.

Spoilers!It had more witty moments, mostly from the Christian/Braxton interaction (but also the scene with Medina taking off in a huff of moral superiority and then backing up because she remembered the kidnapped human trafficker in the trunk of her car), but the case was a lot heavier.

I'm a bit sad that they killed off Ray so quickly, because I enjoyed his character a lot in my rewatch of part one, and I'd been looking forward to seeing more of him.

Ben Affleck continues to do a fantastic job as Christian, and he and Jon Bernthal play off against one another incredibly well. The bickering and teamwork between Chris and Braxton was a lot of fun, and I really enjoyed Braxton wanting some sign that Christian missed him and cared for him while Christian was mostly confused because he thought that was a given. The reveal that Christian never got in touch after the first movie despite promising to was both disappointing and spot-on in terms of characterization.

Having said that… instead of being normal and shipping Christian/Braxton like I expected, I somehow came away from the second movie shipping Christian and Medina. Their entire dynamic is so interesting and iddy to me! The moral divide between them! Him feeding her information all this time and basically making her career! The way she seemed genuinely scared of him for a hot moment when he approached her in the parking garage but still fell asleep in his presence! Him spreading his jacket over her and watching her sleep! ♥ Answering her question why he was helping her with "because you asked me"! And when he realized she was in danger, he rushed off to save her and pinged the police, despite the risk. I wanted them to have another scene at the end, but Medina calling Harbor Neuroscience Academy to thank Justine (who was recast, which confused me a lot) and Chris was a nice touch.

Alas, there's not a single fanfic for the ship, which is a little frustrating considering that the fandom has 200+ works (most of which are apparently Napoleon Solo/Christian Wolff… in Chinese, all by the same writer, who's clearly living their best rare ship life! Good for them!). D:
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([personal profile] sandrine Jul. 12th, 2025 02:43 pm)
The Murderbot episodes only being about half an hour each and released weekly really worked for me because it meant I didn't put it off and have it remain on my 'to watch' list infinitely like so many other shows. I actually watched the season finale on the day it was released.

Murderbot S1 (spoilers!)I really enjoyed the show overall. I came for Alexander Skarsgård and admittedly mostly stayed for Alexander Skarsgård, but the wry humor of Murderbot's narration was really fun, and I loved his delivery and how sympathetic he made the character. And him just wanting to be left alone and watch his soap operas in peace is so relatable! It took me a bit to warm up to the team, but they grew on me (like they grew on Murderbot… so this might or might not actually have been an intentional writers' choice) with their earnest sincerity and their often misplaced optimism. Mensah in particular was very sweet and easy to like, and I was quite fond of Ratthi – bless, he's so hellbent on being 'Seccy's' friend! :D

I'm feeling conflicted about Gurathin because a lot of his attitude and prickliness rubbed me the wrong way, but on the other hand, him downloading Murderbot's memories and storing them in his mind in the finale was touching. I think him gradually overcoming the antagonism and suspicion might have been ship fodder for me if a) I found Gurathin more attractive and b) his change of heart had been given more room to breathe.

The finale was the weakest point of the season for me in many ways. There were many moments in it that I liked, but the shift between the penultimate episode and the finale was too jarring for me. Yes, the time-skip made sense narratively because we got almost everything from Murderbot's POV, and he was not online for whatever happened between the episodes. But he was also not present for some scenes they included in the finale (like the PresAux team negotiates with Corporation Rim for Murderbot's release) so if they broke POV anyway, they might as well have given us the aftermath of the beacon launch and the trip back home.

And I admittedly also disliked the ending. I haven't read the books, so I don't care about following the book storyline, and Murderbot taking off like that was just disappointing, and if they hadn't renewed the show for a second season, that would have been a downer ending. I'm not sure how I feel about a S2 that has less focus on Murderbot's interaction with the team because now that they made me care about these characters, I really want to see more of them.
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([personal profile] sineala Jul. 10th, 2025 11:02 am)
Establishing Shot (7854 words) by Sineala
Chapters: 2/2
Fandom: Marvel (Comics), Marvel 616, Iron Man (Comics)
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Henry Hellrung & Tony Stark
Characters: Henry Hellrung, Tony Stark
Additional Tags: Character Study, First Meetings, Alcohol, Acting, POV Outsider, Comic: Iron Man Vol. 1 (1968)
Summary: When Henry Hellrung lands the role of Tony Stark on the upcoming Avengers TV show, he's thrilled. But first, he needs to know what makes this guy tick. But when the cameras are on... Tony's acting. Who is Tony Stark, really? Henry meets Tony in person, to see if he can learn the truth. What he finds is something he never expected.

It's been a while since I posted a fic, hasn't it? This is actually a gen fic written for the zine Transistor-Powered Heart.

It's also not actually as long as it looks; the second chapter is a bonus version with several deleted scenes.
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